Dear Fellow Travelers.
Any of you who have ever had a cat, especially if it was a kitten, know what type of mischief they can quickly manifest. Sometimes they are delighted and other times quite perplexed with the situations they create. My little darling loves to walk along the edge of the tub in the mornings as the shower runs. One recent morning, I turned on the water to let it heat and walked away to grab something from the bedroom. When I returned, the telltale lump behind the shower curtain was no more and I was left to ponder where his curiosity had led him. The mystery was solved when I pulled back the curtain. There was my little 8 pound explorer trapped on the far side of the tub. He was frozen with fear behind a waterfall, not certain how to maneuver past it and keep his dignity in tack. (If you know cats, then you know that most of them are averse to getting their fur wet.) I was immediately transported back to one of my own experiences with waterfalls.
It was in North Carolina, in the mountains where I had gone to visit some dear friends. We were out and about seeing some of the natural waterfalls and streams the area had to offer. One spot where we stopped, people could walk behind the downpour and stand in the hollowed space of the rock. As I bring the memory forward in my mind, I can hear the water tumbling over the rocks below and smell the combined odor of damp cave, soil and vegetation. It was one of those moments when you know yourself as part of nature.
I stood there in that little scooped out section of rock, looking through the water at the scenery and felt safe and cozy. There was such a comfort in knowing that I was part of the beauty and safe from it at the same time. This brings up a few questions . . .
*How many of us live life this way?
*How often do we stand safe behind a veil afraid to step out and be part of life?
*What do we think is out there that we wouldn't be able to handle?
When I examine my own life, I can see myself in this quote from Marianne Williamson:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our Light, not our Darkness, that most frightens us.”
I’ve come to see that not only have I chosen to remain in the background at times, but have used other people to keep me there. Dean Larson with Conscious Education recently had this to say on the topic : “I have noticed that the submissive person is often more potent [than] the person playing the dominant role. I wondered if people seek dominant relationships to help them contain their own potency because they are afraid they can't control it.”
Wow! Does anyone else out there see themselves in this statement either present or past? He goes on to say: “What would happen if a person embraced and used awareness and allowance to deal with their own potency? Would they need someone outside themselves to run their potency for them? What kind of relationship would develop if each person was in allowance--of themselves and of each other, and facilitated each other's growth instead of suppressing it?” This is a BIG question and a timely one. What I get from this is that sometimes when we’re afraid of living fully into our own power, we find someone to suppress us in order to feel safe. We actually invite another to help us keep from experiencing our own personal greatness. Of course the potential here is one of feeling superior when we see the other person as being controlling and manipulative. We get to stand behind the waterfall in the recess of the cave where it’s safe and look out at the beauty beyond while pinning the blame on someone else. It’s a double win for us. Or is it?
If you find yourself in this space, my question for you is: Why remain there? Are you afraid of getting wet or are you afraid to step into the beauty just beyond the waterfall? I’ve been there and I can promise you there is love, life and abundance on the other side. It’s not as scary as you might think. If you’re ready to let go of the energetic blocks that keep you stuck and would like some help, I’d be honored to guide you.
Blessings & Light,
I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain.